Joy not Happiness

It is very ironic that I wrote about being happy in my last blog because in reality I've been very stressed and unhappy. I've had a negative attitude towards everything that doesn't go my way. I feel like I'm three years old again. A friend told me "joy is forever, happiness is short lived" from there I remembered how joy is one of the fruits of the spirit and a gift from God. God's gifts are eternal. I need to stop thinking and dwelling in my negative attitude, wanting my own happiness. Instead I need to ask the Lord to fill me with His joy. Then I will be satisfied. Time to seek Him. :)

Happiness

One half of the world cannot understand the pleasures of the other.
Jane Austen

Happiness is what this world searches for, yet so many things that promise to bring happiness lead to unhappiness. Happiness is a condition of the heart. For you to be happy the rest of your life, your heart must be in a state of joy. We must also be in-tune with this happiness. People, events, objects, emotions, all try to steal this happiness from your heart. People, events, objects, emotions, are what we use to make us happy. All those things aren't stable and are the same things that steal are happiness. The key to happiness is giving our hearts to something dependable.

Have you found happiness?

I want a Corgi

I have this sense that something really good is about to happen. What will happen? Well, I'm not sure of any details. I just know that good things are in the wings ready to make their entrance. So time is the only thing that is holding this good whatever it is in the wings.

My first summer class is coming to a close. It flew by! Now I'll have to be super self motivated with my online classes. I was really glad that I could get some books at the library! Its great when expensive text books aren't involved and regular novels are used instead. I did get the two textbooks that I needed used which is good. It looks like I'll have a bunch of reading and writing ahead of me.

For a while we haven't had a dog. Living on a main road with much traffic hasn't made a good ending for most of our dogs. After having some previously bad experiences with indoor dogs are dogs and other animals have live outside with alternative housing/shelter. Most all the dogs we have ever owned have been mutts. So with all those things in mind I will own this kind of dog when I have a home of my own. The kind of dog I like is a pembroke welsh corgi. They are so cute with their ears that stick up and their stocky bodies with short little legs. One time, I told my mom I wanted one and she told me I wanted a dog because I didn't have a boyfriend. thanks mom.

on my mind

Itching to work with... paint! I need to find time to pull out the acrylic paints and start something.

Fashion obsessions... sundresses are great you can dress them up for a special event or wear them with hardly any accessories for an everyday look. I'm still in the search for some sandals.

Beauty essentials... Strawberry chapstick is a must and a little bit of mascara is all you need with a tan face. Oh moisturizer with SPF is a good idea too.

Recent splurge... a bathing suit

Signature scent... sweet pea bath and body works body spray

Top shop... make it shops, American Eagle and JcPenney for now

Wishing I could... make a trip down to Kent soon and visit my college friends.

Necessary extravagance... taking my good old time to get ready right up and sometimes past the time I have to go.

Currently craving... watermelon the best summer fruit!

Treasure possession... my friends and family

If I wasn't doing what I'm doing in life... well if I wasn't a student right now I really don't know what I would be doing. I'm really thankful to be where I am in life.

summer 2010!!!!

Summer 2010! yessss! I am so looking forward to long days of warm weather so I can wear my summer clothes again. I survived finals week, with only one cup of coffee. I was surprised by that. At the end I think it was adrenaline that kept me going. I've been catching up on my beauty sleep.

So back to summer, I'm not sure if I want anything to happen in particular so I'm naming this summer the summer of the unexpected. Other than summer classes I'm going to just go with the flow. I hopefully will get a chance to see my high school friends. We have gotten invited to a couple of grad parties and a wedding. This summer the pool in my backyard better get filled unlike last year. I spent a lot of time last summer away from home traveling to Cape Cod, Germany, and various places within Ohio. I wish I could do some traveling but that will have to be for another time. God has it all in His hands and I have to just trust Him and His perfect timing. When I try on my timing everything goes wrong! I need to get back to cleaning my room. Have a great day.

last week of spring semester 2010

I'm going to take time out of my crazy last week of classes and write a short post. I have dozens of other things to do but I've been unable to focus and I still have an evening class tonight. I'm taking summer classes so my summer won't be school free! I wish it was, but if I want to graduate college in a timely manner I must. I love KSU but I don't want to be there for +5 years as an undergrad! Yesterday was the 40th anniversary May 4th 1970 Kent State shootings. The parking lot where this happened in near my dorm. All the major Cleveland news channels 3,5, and 8 were there. You could tell a lot of people visiting had gone to school back in the 70's. Lots of long pony tails. Flowers where left in parking lot. Every year in history class I remember learning about it but it was weird being there on the day. Well back to writing lesson plans, studying, welding, and hopefully enjoying the weather in-between.

Joyful is the person who finds wisdom, the one who gains understanding. Proverbs 3:13 NLT

Taylor Swift

I've loved Taylor Swift and her music from the first time I heard her song Tear Drops on My Guitar on the radio. She has such an honesty and truly writes and sings from the heart. So many of them I have connected to personally and have been my theme songs at different points in my life. This is an arrangement of some of my favorite lyrics from her songs.

He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do

When we’re on the phone and you talk real slow, ‘cause it’s late and your momma don’t know

It’s the first kiss, it’s flawless, really something, it’s fearless

When you think happiness, I hope you think that little black dress

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess, it’s a love story baby just say yes

Why would you want to break a perfectly good heart?

I’m not your princess, this ain’t a fairy tale, I’m gonna find someone someday that might actually treat me well, this is a big world that was a small town

You're just another picture to burn

These things will change, Can you feel it now? These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down, It's a revolution, the time has come for us to finally win

When all you wanted was to be wanted, Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

I’m only me when I’m with you

Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself hey isn't this easy

Can you feel this magic in the air?

The music starts playing like at the end of a sad movie

Stay beautiful

I’m just a girl trying to find a place in this world