Saturday, April 26, 2008


location: Laker Invitational

mood: angry, competitive, and happy (at different times)

Track meet was a big one today. A total of 12 schools there. I had a series of different emotions going. The first race I started strong and fast the first lap but totally died the second. It was a relay so I felt like I sort of drew back from what we could of done. I hadn't run that race since 2 weeks ago. The mile wasn't were I want it to be. I felt like I was running on a treadmill because I felt like I was staying in one spot. I had a hard time changing my pace. Grr. The two mile started out like the two previous races but then I mad a move and managed to pass one girl then another. the one girl was one my heels until the last 100 meters when she speed up and passed me. I got a good time on that race so I ended on a somewhat happier note.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

simple pleasures

location: home

emotion: peaceful

Finally a break to my typical long day. I'm done with running my legs off for today and school is over except for a few little things to be called homework. some people are counting down the days left until school is over but I think its too early yet we still have a ways to go until June 6th. I want to go shopping. I want to go to the new target that I haven't made into yet. Every time I think of target I think of the "hello hello" tune that plays every time they come on TV. I wore capris for the first time this year. School can be a freezer so for most the year you are stuck in hoodies. One class you get super warm and the next is really cold. So being able to wear spring clothes is amazing. I really realized how lovely the spring time is when I went for my run. The trees are all blossoming and the scent from them is heavenly. I guess its the simple pleasures that we learn the most from.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

A mountain reached

location: a mountain peak

emotion: ecstatic

My mind is now at rest from the beginning of the week! I felt like I was on a journey up the steep side of a high mountain. It took me all week to climb it but now I can look back on my obstacles and feel satisfied with the results. Running and prayer are good cures. Running get you moving, gives you a challenge, and keeps you focus on that finish line. Spending x amount of minutes feeling the worse feeling. Yet when its over you feel amazing. Prayer is very similar. You have to stay focus on what prayer needs answered. You have to keep moving in faith that God will grant you the desires of your heart even when its challenging. :]

Now I have so many things to be thankful for! I know there are still mountains to climb and new challenges ahead of me but I know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Monday, April 7, 2008


location: my head

mood: nervous

Today has been nothing but a whirlwind of thoughts! I was being bugged by something and couldn't get my mind off of it. I doubted and thought of every possible thing that I could in order to ease my mind. Stressful over thinking, is a good way to describe it. Only to add to all of this I have a track meet tomorrow, this tense feeling will be there as well as the normal pre-race jitters. Perhaps running will get my mind off it or it just might remind me of it more. It isn't anything to be overcome but instead to wait until it passes, waiting to see what its own way will be.

(Now of course this will make little sense to anyone with knowing so limited of a view. Yet it is the complexity of one's mind that holds a high level of rapid changing that tells a story in its self. A story without knowing details, people, or subjects.)